I was 30kg heavier and basically eating my way to joy every day.
joy... A hollow, empty existence.
I'd wake up in the morning hoping that night time would just come by a lot faster so that I could sleep.
Imagine that (you're probably living that right now)... sleep being the best part of your day.
it doesn't have to be...
Normally I don't swear, but as I say in the book, there is no vocabulary that better encapsulates the feeling of letting go like the F-bomb!
I decided there and then that all the bullshit stories I had heard about "eating for two" or "being a mum is hard" were no longer going to apply to me.
Before saying "fuck it" it was as if I had just accepted my fate without even a fight, AND I grown up as a strong, confident girl.
I had grown up as a strong confident girl
what on earth had happened to me?
I felt like a terrible mother, and that it was just going to be this way forever until something externally changed for me. But nothing had. Not even my clothes. I was still wearing my maternity clothes. Lol.
12 weeks after the birth of my 4th baby (Emmett), I had lost 24kg and gained my power back.
Actually, I gained more power. I felt more power. I felt that I had finally transitioned into what I WANTED to have as a mother and what I wanted to BE as a mother. Not the apron wearing hag with tuckshop arms and whispy hair who spent most of the day hiding in the pantry guzzling chocolate
I was a WOMAN and I understood what my place in the world was.
No longer was I afraid of exercise
I learned to LOVE it (not in that positive talk convince yourself to love exercise way, but in a deep lust for the freedom of movement and expression that all out lung busting exercise can have).
No longer was I afraid of my body.
I wear bikinis now (and even got asked to do a photo shoot for VEVE swimwear. Yes, the swimwear designers that put bikinis on Crystal Hefner, Stephanie Rice, Ellie Gonsalves and Sheridyn Fisher).
No longer was I afraid of my kids
I learned to be the QUEEN in my family, not the SLAVE. My kids love me more now and my husband can't get enough of me (he literally showers me with gifts and praise every day now.)
No longer was I afraid of my stretch marks.
I LOVE them now (and millions of FB shares agree with me that stretch marks are a symbol of the sacrifice I made for my beautiful, perfect children. Thankyou if you are one of the people who commented!)
No longer was I afraid of anything really.
I had grown up!
(I know it sounds purile, but from the messages I get about the program, so many of you agree that you feel like a girl, stuck in a middle aged woman's body, with no support and a TON of pressure!)
You Don't Need To Be Afraid Any More!
You don't have to be afraid of exercise.
With this program, I'll teach you to LOVE it (not in that positive talk convince yourself to love exercise way, but in a deep lust for the freedom of movement and expression that all out lung busting exercise can have).
Be the queen in your family, not the slave.
I'll show you how to break the shackles. You'll see that your entire family wants you to be the queen. You're the one enslaving yourself.
Inspire your family
This is the most common comment on our program "after about 2 weeks in, my husband decided to join me. Our marriage has never been this good!"
You won't be able to force him to do it, but when he starts seeing the change in you, he'll want to join you. (we do have a specific program for him too).
Love what you look like in a bikini
You'll want to book beach holidays so you can just enjoy your body. Stretch marks are sexy now too, how awesome is that!!!
I NEED to share this with you.
I feel like I've been fortunate enough to be given a gift, a gift of somehow getting through the absolute desolation and self destructive minefield I came from.
I feel so lucky that I basically stumbled through it to the other side and now I live a life of absolute magic!
It has been entrusted to me to get women out of the dark ages, the dark ages we created for ourselves, because as Julius (my husband) says:
"Nothing a man can do, can compare to the sacrifice a woman goes through from when she first finds out she is pregnant to when the baby leaves home. Nothing."
And he's right!
If you feel like a slave in your life, in your family, to your habits and behaviours, then let's change together starting right now!